a travering between Andy and I. I don’t know why, why thi i happening to me. Andy i jut a character from a Sharon Draper’ book ‘Tear of a tiger.’ And I am a peron in real life. But I feel ort of connected, to the peron above heaven. Thi ound crazy but true. I can hear hi call; feel hi pain, preading into the empty air.
It’ all my fault. My fault. I houldn’t be drinking and driving. And I killed Robbie.
I wanted to die right after the accident. I hould be the dead one, not Robbie. I mean, he had hi life all planned and I’m ure he’ll do great when he come to hi age. But I? I don’t know anything yet, it’ like I can’t ee the future, and my eye are blinded by the darkne. Ye, the darkne urrounding me tightly, choking me to death. Mot of all, no one will care if I wa gone.
Right. I’ve got no one around me. Mum, he’ too…well, unreaonable. We never open our heart to each other, we kind of tay out of each other’ way. Dad i plainly lame, he never talk, he yell. And all he cared about wa good grade, which I haven’t got. I topped aking him thing before I turned twelve. I ak him a quetion, and I get a lecture, it eaier that way.
Keiha, he ued to know me. We were tight until…the talent how, when he burt out of the hall way, never looking back. She left, jut like everyone ele did. <---->由好作网www.hAOzuowEn.com整理
The only one that’ real cool i my younger brother, Monty. He can really make me mile. But too bad, he’ only ix. And what can a ix year-old do? He wa illy enough to put a dragon in a jungle and tear on a tiger. You know what I’m aying? And he inited that the tiger and the tear were uppoed to repreent me and my pain. I ain’t no tiger, and I ain’t got no pain.
No pain. I’m jut…cold.
Do you think Robbie i cold? Seriouly, it could be real freezing up there. My geography teacher told me that place with high elevation ha low temperature. I Robbie lonely? Will there be baketball up there in heaven?
I dreamt of Robbie, demanding me to go up, go up to keep him company.
Aw what am I thinking? Robbie i dead. He’ dead for god’ ake. And I killed him.
It’ all my fault……
I can’t take thi anymore. I feel like the pain i cruhing my gut open.
Lat night, I tood there on the mountain. I became ort of hypnotized by the lick whitling of the car a they ruhed beneath me. And I wanted to jump. I jut felt like I hould be down there, like if I were part of that fat moving ruh, I wouldn’t feel anything anymore and everything would be cool again.
Oh man. Only if I never exited. Never exited……I wih I could leep for ever.
It’ not that I want to die; it’ jut that I can’t tand the pain of living anymore. I jut want the hurt and pain inide to go away. It’ like a monter in my gut- eating me up from the inide out. Actually, I feel like the only thing that’ keepin’ me from going crazy i thi terrible terrible pain.
I’m orry for all I’ve done- o orry…o very, very or—
It’ dark where I am
And I cannot find the light.
There are hadow all around me
And my heart i full of fright.
Everyone i cheerful
They can never ee
That torm cloud are forming
Upon the peaceful ea.
I cannot ee the future
And I cannot change the pat
But the preent i o heavy
I don’t think I’m going to lat.
Dear Andy:
You are probably on your way to the heaven, where there would be no pain, forever.
But don’t you ee, life in’t perfect, but it’ at leat life! There are ton of people out there trying to urvive, and you took your life for granted!
Andy, you illy fellow. Why did you do that? Why do you till blame yourelf for omething Robbie will forgive you for?
You didn’t die in that car cruh for a reaon, god needed you down here with u. But what have you done? You’ve taken away every ingle hope of our.
Suicide i the coward way out, brave man face their problem, and what doe that make you? Death in’t the olution and it will never be. What were you thinking when you held your father’ hot gun in hand? Did you ever think about your parent? Your family and friend? What would they feel? Ye, I admit, it’ your life and you can decide to take it or not. But it’ alo connect other people’ feeling, and you have no right to hurt them, but hurt them anyway.
There are thing beyond our power to control, and we can’t do anything about it.
If you feel depreed, wreck it. Cry, and you’ll feel all lightened up. Who ay tiger don’t cry? It’ jut that tiger don’t cry in front of people other people. Andy, there are no hame in tear.